Monday, June 2, 2008
Anyone want to be me for a while ?????????
I told myself last night I would write about this in my journal, but whatever.Things between my friend Debbi and I have'nt been so good lately, she never seems to want to make an effort for us to hang out , even though I rarely get to see her more then 5 minutes during the week , we used to be able to have lunch twice a week when we were both working , but now I can never get away when I want to, it's frustrating, I've told her countless times we should hang out on the weekends so we can chat without constant interuptions but she gives me lame excuse about doing laundry on Sundays, Come on, one damn day you ca'nt break your rut ?I've stopped calling her, I do'nt even feel happy anymore when she shows up at lunch and expects me to have my break whenever I can, Usually by the time I get my break , it's time for her to go back to work so if I'm lucky we get to chat for 5 minutes when I am working, I'm sick and tired of her pretending to be my friend and telling me when she sees me " I think about you every day" and this and that, Yeah sure you do, then why do you make an effort for us to hang out, I feel this so - called friendship has become very one - sided with me doing most of the work, I'm pretty sick of it too, Sometimes I wish she had'nt moved back here to San Mateo, our friendship first got damaged I think when she moved two years ago, I feel I deserve better then a 5 minute "Hi" twice a week, does she ever call me ????? No It used to be me who had to do all the calling, Not anymore, I am so done with fake people or people who pretend to be my friend, Ellen thank you for the beautiful sympathy card that came today, thank you allfor listening to my rant, hope you all have a good Tuesday, I Love You All Lisa XOXO