Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Bad Fathers and Boring Tuesday

Hi friends, I just got home from another boring day.It was really warm here today so I think that is why there was a huge lack in business in my store today.I happened to glance at the San Mateo Daily News and there was a story that struck a nerve with me in the paper from today.About 4 years ago in Half Moon Bay there was a house fire and two small boys died .The father claimed he tried to save them and he was hailed a hero but today it was found out that he set the fire on purpose even though it had been originally ruled as an accidental fire.Wow I ca'nt imagine , what a heartless bastard to kill your own children, set a fire and let them die, it upset me , if any of you would like to see which story I am talking about click on this link www.smdailyjournal.com the issue from today Tuesday, Bad fathers really strike a nerve with me, probably because I am the product of a bad father.We are'nt speaking and have'nt spoken for 4 years, Do I miss him ? Not really ? Do I wish I had a different father , one that gave a damn about me ? Of course I do, but I accepted things the way they are, As far back as I can remember I never got the impression his children mattered to him, it was funny because he always put strangers before his own family, I grew up feeling invisible and worthless and at times I still do.I feel envious and a little sad when I see a young girl and her dad come into my store arm in arm, I wish I knew what that was like, sigh .........Moving on I was dying of boredom in my store today, here is an example of how slow of a day it was today, I gor a total of 4 emails today, yup 4 , but I gave it my all. Anthony told me that he was starting a contest every day for whoever got the most emails would win movie tickets, maybe Friday I will win, lol.He also told me Cyndie was coming by tommorow morning, wow am I glad I'm off and she made him slash some hours so I'm off for the next two days woo-hoo !!!!!!!!!!! Hope you all have a good Wednesday, I noticed CSI is'nt on for the next 2 weeks on Thursday :( OMG I'm going to suffer from withdrawel, good thing I have the 6 sets of DVD's of it and Spike TV is always showing CSI every weeknight too, Have a good Wednesday everyone, Love You All and Hugs Lisa XO



jckfrstross said...

have a great hump day:)


emmi2sweet said...

Nothing better than watching your favorite episodes to get you through the night. =D Emmi

motoxmom72 said...

Sso sorry today was boring!  String that a$$hole bad father up and burn him like his children were burned- that's what I think!  6 sets of CSI.....my mouth salivated at the thought of having 6 sets of CSI to watch!!!

kamdghwmw said...

It has been nice here! I am so sorry that you had a boring day at work.

queeniemart said...

You are a WONDERFUL lady and friend.....your father is the one missing out on YOU. You did not deserve to be raised by such a poor example of a dad and i hope someday you know what you are worth...you are worth SO much to me always!!!!!

eml625 said...

Those poor kids.
I am sorry about your childhood, you seem like such a sweet person. I hope you work through this.

imgr8phil said...

Sounds like you are stuck in a rut.  I know your situation in your father really bothers you.  Wish there was something I could do to make you feel better about that.  Anyway, take care Lisa.


magogos said...

As I have said before, You deserved better from your father, and he is the one who has missed out on the opportunity to know you. You are worth the effort of getting to know! He should be ashamed. Hugs, Margo

dca721 said...

I am sorry to hear that your father isn't there for you.
You turned out to be a wonderful person without him.
I am just reading this today.
I have been so backed up in my emails.
Love you,