Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Little Update

 Hi friends, I just love that picture above, Sooooooo cute,  hope you all had a good Tuesday, mine was ok, quite a boring day at work, but still a good one.I saw dad again last night after work with my brother, he seemed to be in good spirits considering how sick he is, I brought him some pictures including the picture of me holding my prized autographed picture of Jorja, he was impressed she wrote to me, but Jorja is full of awesomeness  as any fan of hers knows and dad and I and my brother had a pretty nice visit.On the way home though my brother's car broke down on a busy freeway at 9:30 p.m. at night, wow that totally sucked because it was really cold out and I had to pee so bad, but the guy was nice that came to tow his car and dropped us off in a better area of San Bruno then where his car broke down, he had it fixed today and it was $ 300 but at least now it runs again.I'm still mad at TNT for changing thier 11:00 Cold Case timeslot,  I used to look forward to Cold Case nights on TNT, there are 2 episodes on tonight and tommorow at 4 and 5:00 a.m on TNT, I may get up tonight for one of them, what the hell, lol.I would like to say a huge " Thank You" to Emmi for the awesome birthday card that came yesterday and also to Amy for so kindly bidding on a Cold Case DVD for me on Ebay and also for the wonderful pictures of the boys and the cats that came today, thanks so much Amy !!!!!!!!!! Hope you all have a good Wednesday, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Thanks TNT

 Hi friends, hope you all are having a good weekend, mine is going ok.It's a beautiful warm day out , I've been doing alot of thinking this weekend, my dad is still not doing well and is starting to have symptoms from the cancer,  Thank you for all of your prayers and well -wishes, they have meant the world to me, I could'nt help but think when I read Mary's entry in her journal yesterday I would be writing a similar entry like that soon too, Mary you are in my thoughts today, praying for your family,  I may go see him again tommorow after work with my brother, I noticed TNT changed the time slot for Cold Case for now until May 8'th, now instead of it being on Tues , Wed and Thurs night at 11:00 p.m., it seems like the new time slot is 4:00 and 5:00 a.m. , I may have to get up once or twice this coming week at 4:00 a.m. and 5:00 a.m. and watch a couple of episodes, some of the ones on this week I have never seen, Although last night on CBS at 8 and last Saturday night too Cold Case was on at 8:00 p.m. on CBS and as far as I know it still airs on Sundays too at 9:00 p.m. on CBS, one of the ducks below had babies and they are so cute,hope you all have a good Sunday, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Friday, April 25, 2008

2 Weeks to a month left to live

 Hi friends, sorry I have'nt been around much, life keeps getting in the way.I saw some friends from my old neighborhood last night, it was nice catching up and seeing them again.I had an almost chance to meet my idol Jorja Fox May 3'rd at a place called Animal Acres near Los Angeles where she was going to be attending a benefit to help animals , but my friend Debbi who offered to take me could'nt get the time off work and I am going away for 3 days May 5'th so that would have been cutting it really close.I'm disappointed , but I'll live.Last night when I got home my brother was waiting, doctors have given my dad up to a month to live, they even said it could be two weeks.I guess soon I will recieve that dreaded phone call in the middle of the night, I will cringe from now on whenever the phone rings, this is so unreal, if you can send up some prayers for my family, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Tuesday Update

 Hi friends, I just got home a short while ago and am exhausted but the visit tonight went pretty well.My brother picked me up after a boring and uneventful day at work.I felt a little nervous on the ride there, when I saw my dad it was shocking to see how much weight he had lost.His skin also had a yellowish tint, think it was jaundice from his liver being so sick.We talked and it was ok, he told me that this Thursday he goes in for another doctor's appt, I myself though judging from his appearance tonight do'nt think he has much time left, maybe a couple of months, but then again, it's hard to say.I made my peace with him and I feel good about that.I feel free knowing that I did the right thing and he knows I have forgiven him , I hope you all have a good hump day, back to work for me tommorow, thanks for all your prayers and well -wishes, I felt them today, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Monday, April 21, 2008

Nervous about Tommorow

 Hi friends, hope you all had a good day considering it is an icky Monday, my day was'nt too bad, a little boring, I became a hero for the day when I found this lady's cell phone she left at my register, she was so happy I found it and did'nt even know she had left it earlier at my register, she hugged me and told Robin what a great employee I was, Robin smiled, guess it was nice for her to hear good compliments instead of complaints, Tommorow after work my brother will be picking me up and I will be going to see my dad, I am feeling a little nervous so if you all could say a little prayer for me, I would really appreciate it alot, I have'nt seen him in almost 5 years, it will be emotional no doubt and a little ackward too, but hopefully everything will go ok.Hope you all have a good Tuesday ,  Oh and good news for all you night owls, this week starting tonight at 4:00a.m. and 5:00 a.m. on TNT , 2 Cold Case episodes will be airing tonight , tommorow night and Thursday on TNT at 4:00 a.m. and 5:00 a.m. , little too late for me, Damn it anyhow , but great shows on tonight, I've seen them both,  I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Quiet Sunday

Hi friends, Thank you so much to Emmi for the adorable tag above,  Angie I'm so glad you are home safe from your camping trip, missed you !!!!!!!!!!! Hope you all had a good Sunday, mine was pretty uneventful.I just went grocery shopping and mailed a few things off.I would like to ask you all to go to the Call for Support journal and leave some kind words for my sweet friend Michelle aka (Momiscool2) - she is having a hard time right now and she could use some love and care, send her Lisa41076 sent you. I am feeling nervous about seeing my dad again Tuesday, I was reading a Chicken Soup For The Cat Lover's Soul book today and started crying, my brother told me my dad is on morphine so his time left may be very limited.I'm hoping when I go over there Tuesday night his new wife who he is remarried to Kathy does'nt make her snide or rude remarks to me like saying "Where have you been all this time?, or "It's about time you remembered your father" I do'nt care much for Kathy, she is rude, thoughtless, nosy, says whatever she feels like saying without a second thought to anyone's feelings,She always made me feel like I was'nt good enough,  I suspect that she is a gold digger too , I have always sensed that about her.Anyhow I will let you all know how it goes Tuesday, I hope you all have a good upcoming week, back to work for me tommorow, Tues and Wed, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Saturday, April 19, 2008

An Upcoming Reunion

 Hi friends, hope you all had a good Saturday, Mine was pretty good, I was disappointed at the street fair today, it was more paintings and wall art then arts and crafts. Still fun though , nevertheless, When I got home there was a tan envelope waiting on the table in the lobby addressed to me from Angie and there was a beautiful picture of Jorja inside, thanks so much Angie, I was surprised the mailman that is filling in for my nice regular lady just left the envelope on the table in the lobby where anybody could have walked by and swiped it but wow he was sure a prick to me yesterday when I asked him a question, My brother talked to my dad on the phone yesterday and said he was crying, he also said my dad wants to see me so this coming Tuesday after work I am going over for a visit with my brother, I am feeling a little nervous so if you all could say a little prayer for me Tuesday I would appreciate it very much, Lisa Jo around 8 :00 p.m. on CBS tonight I discovered Cold Case was on,  It is never on CBS Saturday nights, I hope you saw that too, I have no idea where my TV Guide is for this week or I would have told you and Chrissie to watch tonight, damn it :( Anyhow wishing you all a wonderful Sunday, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Friday, April 18, 2008

Happy 1'st Birthday to my CSI Fan Fiction Journal :)

 Hi friends, thank you to Sugar for the lovely tag above, I would like to wish my CSI fan fiction journal a very Happy first birthday,  75 Chapters and still going strong, thank you also to my loyal readers, I appreciate feedback always, you are what keeps me going :) Love You All Lisa XOXO

Quiet Friday

 Hi friends, hope you all had a good Friday.I did'nt do too much today, just chilled at home and sat by the pool writing letters. I still ca'nt believe the Beast is gone forever from my store,  Somebody slap me and tell I'm not dreaming and The Beast is never coming back again, My stress level has dropped in a huge way ever since Kafi told me that Melissa was gone for good yesterday I recieved a package today from someone - A J-lander I think that had a little book with life lessons in it, thank you so much to whoever sent me that cute little book, I think you all should have recieved my mail by now, but Amanda and Sugar, there is mail coming for both of you.I might go hit a street fair tommorow, you guys know me and street fairs, lol. Wishing you all a wonderful and relaxing weekend, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Thursday, April 17, 2008

It's official - The Beast is history !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Hi friends, hope you all had a good Thursday.It 's hot here in the 80's.I have wonderful news to share that I kind of knew already but today it was official - the Beast is gone forever !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  My co-workers were all so happy today and smiling again -Woo-hoo Good Riddance Beastie , do'nt let the door hit ya on the way out, I am off work until Monday, yeah, did any of you get my snail -mail today ? Let me know if you did, I figure my dad should have probably recieved my card today too. We'll see what happens, I'll let you all know, Have a great Friday and upcoming weekend, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Boring Tuesday

 Hi friends, I hope you all had a good Tuesday.Mine was pretty boring to say the least but I'm telling you all it's like heaven having Melissa gone.A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I know you all will miss hearing about her though, lol.Alot of you should be getting snail -mail from me this week so please let me know when you all recieve my mail, I am working again tommorow and Thursday and off Fri , Sat, and Sunday.My brother went to visit my Uncle tonight regarding my dad but my mom said my brother told her my Uncle sounded "strange" on the phone earlier so I'll bet it's not good news.I sent my dad a card this morning so we'll see what happens.I told him I was willing to forgive him and maybe we can put the past behind us and move forward.I hope you all have a good Wednesday,  My CSI  fan fiction journal will be celebrating it's first birthday this coming Saturday, thank you to those of you who read it and leave me awesome comments,  By the way a huge "Thank you" to Kelli aka Noonmom for the awesome Vegas postcard, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Monday, April 14, 2008

Ding Dong The Beast is Gone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Hi friends, I have good news to share with you all, I think the Beast is gone ( for good that is )  Can I get a huge woo- hoo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Doing my happy dance, so far The Beast has been gone a month so I doubt she is coming back ever,  so from now on Lisa will be much more relaxed and focused , I would like to say a huge "Thank you " to Michelle for the awesome birthday card, I loved it, thanks so much :) I hope you all have a good rest of the week, you know I will, lol. Alot of you have snail -mail coming from me so be looking in your mailboxes, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Sunday, April 13, 2008

New Cold Case tonight on CBS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Attention, Attention, breaking news, lol. Tonight on CBS at 9:00 p.m. is a new episode of Cold Case, also for you night owls, starting April 22, nd on TNT AT 4:00 a.m. and 5:00 a.m. until Thursday April 24, th there will be 2 Cold Case episodes on Tuesday morning the 24'th at 4 and 5:00 a.m. Wednesday morning at 4:00 and 5:00 a.m. and 2 shows Thursday morning at 4: 00 and 5:00 a.m., ok I'm out , hope you all are having a good Sunday, Happy Birthday Russ !!!!!!!!!! Waves :) I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Saturday, April 12, 2008

A Birthday Tommorow - Yea !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  I would like to wish my awesome friend Russ who has the journal Inner and Outer Demons a very "Happy Birthday" tommorow, Russ you are such a great guy, hope you have a wonderful birthday tommorow, Love Ya Lisa XOXOXOXO

It's About Time I Know

 Hi Friends, hope you all are having a good Saturday, whew it's hot here, lol.My day was'nt too exciting, I mailed some cards off  to a couple of awesome J- Landers and made some photos up at Long's Drugs today, I love thier photo processing there, ok now do you all remember when Jorja Fox sent me the autographed picture in November and made my entire year ? I had my mom take my picture holding the awesome autographed picture Jorja sent me so anyone who would like me to snail -mail them a copy of the picture please let me know ok, I went out and took a 2 mile walk today and it felt good, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Friday, April 11, 2008

Friday Thoughts

 Hi friends, Thank you to Chrissie for one of the most beautiful Lilly and Scotty tags ever made !!!!!!!!! Lilly And Scotty are love :) They are too cute , I wish they would hook up already on the show.Anyhow work was good, Quiet but a good day all in all,  everyone was keeping mum about Melissa coming back or not, I'm wondering if that is good or bad, hmmm guess Monday I will find out for sure.Pray the Beast is gone for me ok, I would like to thank Angie, Sharon and Teresa for the awesome birthday cards that came in the mail today, you guys rock, thank you so much !!!!!!! I noticed for the past few days a dull ache on both of my sides where my ovaries are, wondering what that is, always something, lol. Thank you you guys for the advice about my dad, I just may end up visiting him, maybe we can put the past behind us and I can forgive him, He may be feeling bad about how he treated me in the past for all I know, sometimes when a person knows they do'nt have much time left on earth , their perspective changes,  I hope you all have a good weekend, need to get some snail - mail out tommorow . It will be hot tommorow and Sunday, enjoy your weekend everyone, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

More Dad News

 Hi friends, my brother came over last night and gave me more news about my dad.It does'nt look good for him, he has multiple tumors in his liver and pancreas , the doctor told him he better start fixing his will and to get all his ducks in a row, no matter how much of an ass he has been to me, this news still makes me want to cry.The doctor told my dad he may have a month, two months, 6 months ????? I am still trying to decide if I want to see him, He may change his bad attitude towards me if he is dying, what would you all do ??????? Thanks for your input, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Thursday, April 10, 2008

A Huge Huge "Thank You" to You All

 Hi friends, I would like to say a huge "Thank you" to all of you for the E cards and the birthday wishes  and the journal shoutouts and the greeting cards,  A  Huge "Thank you" to Amy for the birthday card and The Cheesecake Factory giftcard there will be a  snail - mail card going out for you tommorow, A Huge " Thank You" to Michelle for the gorgeous Flower Cake there will be  a snail mail  card going out for you too,   Lisa Jo I loved your card and what you wrote inside, you are so awesome !!!!!!!!!!, Thank you all for making my birthday so special, I am so blessed to have you all in my life, Love You All So Much Lisa XOXO

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Happy Birthday to me

 Hi friends,tommorow is my 32'nd birthday, yea !!!!!!!!! I took the day off from work too, lol. I am praying the Beast will not be back and I have seen the last of her.That would be the best gift of all, lol. New CSI on tommorow night too, although I may not bother watching it, for me without Sara,  the show has gone downhill.I hope you all have a good day tommorow, I am looking forward to a day off, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Another Uneventful Day

 Hi friends, hope you all had a good Tuesday.My day was pretty good and Beast -free !!!!!!!!!! One of my co -workers was annoying me though, When he came back from his break I went to the front to pee and he was paging he to come back and ring while I was peeing, Sheesh give me a damned minute will ya ??????? I was pissed at him for being so impatient and was happy to leave at 4:00 p.m. today.I found out some more news from my brother regarding my dad.According to him he said one of the tumors my dad has is the size of a golf ball, wow that does'nt sound good.Thank you Lisa Jo for the birthday card, I have'nt opened it yet, but I will on the 10'th , my B-day.Also in the new TV Guide  with Office Secrets on the coverthat came today there was a small picture of Jorja inside, God I miss her so much on CSI, she is and always will be my favorite actress although Kathryn Morris from Cold Case who plays Lilly Rush is my second favorite actress and William Petersen from CSI and Danny Pino from Cold Case are my favorite actors.I hope you all have a good hump day, it's cold and windy here, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Monday, April 7, 2008

An Uneventful Monday

Hi friends, thank you to Emmi for the awesome tag above, when I went into work today the Beast was'nt there.Maybe she is on the way out, we had another supervisor from the Mountain View Store helped us out today.Have I ever mentioned how much I hate Mondays ????? Ugh is there no worse day of the week ? Anyhow the day went pretty fast and was uneventful.I was bored much of the day and spent time cleaning up near my register.I am working again tommorow , Wednesday and Friday, glad it will be a Beast -free week .Right now I need a Beast - free week, I could use a couple of Beast -free months actually, lol.Hope you all have a good Tuesday, a hot bath is calling my name, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Turning To My Fate

Hi friends, thank you to Emmi for the beautiful tag above, I've been doing alot of praying and soul -searching this weekend.I feel sad for my dad that his life may soon be ending, but at the same time I pity him too for being so full of anger and hate towards others.I wonder if even now if he knows he will be facing death if he will try to turn over a new leaf but I doubt it.He is who he is and I am who I am.I feel sorry for my brother Derek who is in touch with my dad and will probably get screwed over one more time by my dad when he does pass away.My dad is great for empty promises and bullshit lies.I am certain he put his new wife's two children before my brother in his will, that would be just like him, putting non relatives above blood relatives, sigh ............ anyhow sorry if this entry is depressing, My heart is a little heavy this weekend, I will pray to God for strength and try my best to get through this week and every week after that.I am also praying that Melissa will soon be out the door at our work and that last time I saw her with the police will be the last time I ever see her, I just want a new manager and a kind person to work under, I know there will never be another Anthony, but someone close to him.Thank you for listening, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Trying to absorb the news

 Hi friends, I watched the best episode of Cold Case earlier on the CW channel with all songs from Bruce Springsteen, I still ca'nt believe my dad has cancer.It's hard to imagine, I have'nt seen him in over 5 years, I have gone through my whole life without him being in my life pretty much.In his eyes I am a failure and he never accepted me.It hurt beyond words but I moved on without looking back.He has proven to me over and over that he does'nt give a damn about me.I keep thinking did his rotten attitude and hate towards so many people bring this on ? He is full of rage, mad at the world, always looking to see how he can get back at someone, I decided he was'nt what I wanted to be and I took a different route in life, accepting others and being kind, so far it's been ok, I know in my heart I am a good person, not perfect by any means but a good person.Too bad my dad will never know me, I have had so much weighing on my mind today, Angie I'm sorry I did'nt call you back today, got some unexpected company, Tommorow night on CBS at 9:00 p.m. is a new Cold Case, I'll be watching, Gina thanks for calling me tonight, it was nice to hear from a friend,  I am so tired , it's been a long day, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Aohell is eating alerts !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aohell is eating journal entries again so be sure you check all the journals you read on a regular basis, sigh................ Thanks Aohell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling Numb

 Hi Friends, I think Aohell is eating alerts again, what else is new though ???? My brother came over last night for a while and told me when he had been at work , he had gotten a call from my dad's new wife Kathy saying that X- rays had shown my dad has tumors in his pancreas and lungs , but just the day before my brother told me the doctors had found a tumor in his liver too.Does'nt sound good for him,  whatever it is , it seems to be spreading. I believe he has cancer, I guess I was a little shocked absorbing this news.I'm pondering whether I want to see him or not.I have'nt seen him in over 5 years. Seeing him would be really ackward and his new wife would put me down like always, My brother told me a couple of years ago that my dad told him to tell me that he cut me out of his will, but I was'nt surprised by that.In fact I would have been more surprised if he had'nt being so filled with hate and all.His new wife who is the greediest person I've ever met probably told him to cut me out of the will so there would be more money for her and he did   being the spineless worm he is . A few months ago he sent me a statement in the  mail saying he drained the bank account he had created for me and  it showed that instead of $ 600 that had been in there , now there was a 0 instead.My dad always put strangers before his family so when he remarried he did all kinds of things for his new wife's kids he never did for me and my brothers, we were a burden, he never wanted to take us anywhere or go out of his way for us,  me , Derek and Anthony, "too expensive" were his famous words, yet he took Kathy's kids on countless cruises and trips to Disneyland, I do'nt know, I can forgive sometimes, but I can never forget.If I said all my life my dad made me feel like a 5'th wheel and like I never mattered , it would'nt be a lie.My mom is the parent in my life who has always been there for me, sigh...................any advice for me????? I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Friday, April 4, 2008

Just Thinking ..................................

 Hi friends, hope you all had a good Friday.I must say I was so disappointed in the CSI producers once again last night for using that photo of Grissom and Sara in the preview as a tease and then not even mentioning it in the episode.I did figure out though at the end when his cell phone rang that it was Sara calling him.He seemed so happy and relaxed when he got that call, it had to be Sara. I enjoyed a quiet Friday , free of work and the beast.Thank you to Gretchen for the birthday card and to LJ for the awesome CSI article . I just love snail -mail., I do'nt plan on doing much, except kicking back.Angie there is more snail -mail heading your way, I hope you all have a good and relaxing weekend, Cold Case will be another new episode this Sunday night on CBS, that show is beyond awesome, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Thursday, April 3, 2008

The Beast Got In Trouble

 Hi friends, hope you all had a good Thursday.I had another beast - free day.Also I found out the beast got in trouble and was given next week off,  I thought it was strange she was'nt at work this week either,  I think she was suspended, hmmmmm could it be she will be out the door soon ?????? Stay tuned, you know I will give you all the juicy details, lol. Ok off to watch CSI and Without A Trace, Hope you all have a great Friday , I am so ready for it, by the way have any of you seen the new 5 dollar bills ??? They are pretty cool looking, I Love You All Lisa XOXO

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

A Nice Day Without The Beast

 Hi friends, Thank you to Sugar for one of my favorite tags ever made !!!!!!!!!! Hope you all had a good day.I had a nice peaceful beast - free Wednesday and it was awesome !!!!!!!!!!!!! I have noticed so far this beast has'nt been around much this week, could it be ? Could she have gotten in trouble for when the police were at work last week ? A big hmmmm, guess we will see.Ok OMG CSI is new tommorow night and Sara will be mentioned in the show and Gil is home sick with the flu and Catherine pops over to his place to visit him and sees a picture on his refridgerator of him and Sara, I miss Sara so much and no matter what anyone says I think Jorja Fox is so beautiful, maybe not a classic beauty like Kathryn Morris from Cold Case or Marg Helgenberger from C.S.I. but still a very beautiful woman and there is an appeal about her like she seems very warm and down to earth in real life. I treasure the autographed picture Jorja sent me back in November and it came at at time in my life when I was so down and she reminded me why she is my favorite actress ever.I love the gap in her teeth , she is a natural beauty and also from what I have heard about her she is the nicest person and is awesome to every fan who has ever met her, and I think of myself as a imperfect beauty so maybe that is why I admire Jorja so much, I have a classic Italian nose that I hated as a kid , but in time I guess I gotten used to it , but I still makes me insecure at times.Anyhow so I am very excited for CSI tommorow night on CBS at 9:00 p.m. although I must say this season of CSI so far has dissapointed me greatly as a long time fan of the show.It seems like all thier good writers left even before the strike and then I started watching Cold Case on CBS and TNT and fell in love, that show rocks !!!!!!!! I love Lilly and Scotty on the show the best, they are adorable as partners and I would love to see them hook up, Hope you all have a good Thursday, think the Beast is off again tommorow, a big yea there !!!!!!! I overheard Bret at work telling Robin today nobody liked Melissa, I felt like chiming in and saying "Gee you think?" Lol, I Love You All Lisa XOXO