Thursday, August 31, 2006

A little dose of Anthony and all is better

Hi friends, thank you so very much for all your kind comments to me yesterday and today.They mean so much to me and help me feel better.Today was good , I called Anthony at work to ask him something today and he asked me for a favor , if I could come in for 5 hours to cover the mid-shift, well you all know how much I like him, I am like butter in his hands, I melt whenever he talks to me and smiles at me or compliments me and says "How good I am with the customers " So in I went .He was in a pretty good mood , and looked wonderful as always.I was helping him put some shelves together for our new shipment of Halloween stuff and his hand kept touching mine, it made me all tingly with joy.When I went back to my register Anthony reminded me to ask the customers if they want to sign up to be on our World Market email list, I have'nt been that great about asking people and then he added "I am supposed to write people up that do'nt ask, but I really do'nt want to do that to you !" I was like Awwwwwwww he is such a sweetheart !!!!!!! He made my day so much better today by being there and being kind to me.I wish so much my dad was as kind to me as Anthony is, it really breaks my heart that things have to suck between my father and I. We have'nt spoken in almost 4 years, but he can never treat me like a human being or treat me like I am someone who matters , he always makes me feel so crappy about myself.My self-esteem is in serious need of repairs from damage down to me during my childhood.I have serious trust issues and I am shy still with people I do'nt know too well.I also have a hard time believing I am worth something.I am trying to fix that .Thank you again for all your kind comments, I love you all so much, more then you will ever know, by the way Barbara my new best friend, I had such a wonderful conversation with you last night, you are such a great friend and I love you lots !!!!!!!!!!!!!  Have a good Friday everyone, I'm off to watch CSI !!!!!!!!! :) XO Lisa

7 comments:

siennastarr said...

Lisa, I'm sorry that you had such a hard childhood and your father made you feel so worthless and insignificant.  You can change that though.  I did.  My stepfather did the same thing to me, but I turned it around.  I refused to let him bring me down to his level of thinking.  
You are your own worse enemy, Lisa.  Try and be as confident as you can, because how you feel about yourself, reflects how others see you.  

I'm glad that Anthony was nice to you today and that it made you feel better just being around him.

Hang in there sweetie!

Hugs,
Jackie

mastersblynn said...

Hey Best Friend!  Sorry I missed you today... Rick is home only for today and I gottat spend time with the man!!!!  I Am better today because of you and our little talk.  Thanks for being there for me! Barbara

chat2missie said...

Life gets better!  Honest it does!  Have a good weekend.
Missie

queeniemart said...

I am glad you are feeling better....it saddens me that you feel so down about yourself and that a man can make you feel that way. You are so much MORE than you give yourself credit for. You have a huge huge heart and i hope someday you meet the man who deserves your love and a piece of that beautiful heart i have already come to know.
XO lisa jo

seraphoflove9001 said...

Oh my Lisa. I am so sorry to hear this. I had a stepdad that abused me in every way you can imagine from the age of 4 until I was 17. My self esteem is still under construction to this day. I do pray that today will be a better day for you. {{{HUGS}}}
Lisa

dreamingbrwneyes said...

Be careful about this guy, its dangerous when we base our worth and happiness on how much someone likes us or how good they make us feel.
~ Jenny

inafrnz247 said...

Lisa,
 Hey girl!  I'm so glad you had a better day yesterday, and that someone special to you made you smile inside and out!  You deserve it!  I'm sorry for the unresolved issues between you and your father that cause you pain.  Stay strong!  THANKS for the postcard!!    Hugs, Michelle